The more I think about human connection, a diagram is surfacing. A trinity of awareness. I have a Self-Perception. I give a Self-Appearance. Then there is an Other-Perception. This is who I am. Self-perception is the critical and loving understanding I have of my history, present, and hopes with my feelings, emotions, and thoughts. My self-appearance is the person I'd like the world to see me as. It is my behavior, actions and expressions. Other-perception is how the world interprets me. It gives me feedback completing a connection loop that leads to union or division. All three pieces are alive.
There is one last synthetic piece, and it is Other-Appearance. This is how I can picture when others interpret and describe how they would like the world to see me. This is not alive or who I am. It is a complicated translation of encounters with my trinity described above.