I find my doubt is healed by the undeserved blessings I cannot help but be grateful for. The hard part is having to accept that God might be using my intellect, economics, conveniences, and luxuries to help remind me that divinity may not only be seen in nature. I am reminded that even in service there is a reward. Be balanced, don't take more than I need, and have respect are phrases that come to ease my worry after feeling the anxiety of discerning whether I am being blessed or being self-indulgent.
Embracing the Elements: Curanderismo